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I...think I need a break. Or something. I don't know, I just feel like my linkshell is suffacating me. Mind you, I love the people in it dearly and I've made some amazing friends, but this whole crimson legs thing has gotten me really angry and frustarted.
I guess I need to explain me a bit before getting into this. I'm a pleaser by nature. I have this thing where I want everyone to be happy, even at the expense of me. Now, I put quite a things before me as far as my linkshell goes. Turned down lotting on Z pants and Crown to let WHM's have, etc. When I lotted on the pants I won't lie and say I wasn't being selfish, but I have the right to be every now and then, right? Well, the count of people leaving because of me getting crimson pants is, get this, five. Yes, five people have left because a RDM got crimson pants before PLD's. I'm angry, I'm frustrated, and I want a break, but I feel like I can't. I feel like I'll just be proving all of those losers right if I vanish for a bit. Plus they've gotten me a hella lot in the seven or so months I've been a part of the linkshell. So I feel guilty about wanting to take a break, about liking my pants as much as I do, hell I even feel guilty about not being able to show up to events religously because of my job.
So...what do I do?
I guess I need to explain me a bit before getting into this. I'm a pleaser by nature. I have this thing where I want everyone to be happy, even at the expense of me. Now, I put quite a things before me as far as my linkshell goes. Turned down lotting on Z pants and Crown to let WHM's have, etc. When I lotted on the pants I won't lie and say I wasn't being selfish, but I have the right to be every now and then, right? Well, the count of people leaving because of me getting crimson pants is, get this, five. Yes, five people have left because a RDM got crimson pants before PLD's. I'm angry, I'm frustrated, and I want a break, but I feel like I can't. I feel like I'll just be proving all of those losers right if I vanish for a bit. Plus they've gotten me a hella lot in the seven or so months I've been a part of the linkshell. So I feel guilty about wanting to take a break, about liking my pants as much as I do, hell I even feel guilty about not being able to show up to events religously because of my job.
So...what do I do?
