safaiagemffxi | (no subject)

Well...SHIT. What a week right? I mean, I was excited when I won the lot I was shaking, I was that happy.

Then came the drama.

Let me start from the beginning. I went into this triple Kirin day expecting to be lotting for these pants against, at least, four other people. Turned out my LS leader decided to let only two of the PLD's lot with me. One lotted an 11 and the other a 49, then me at 699. This is not what I was expecting. The first thing I did was square things with those other two PLD's. One said yeah, I wanted them, but I'm happy for you anyway. The other said he didn't really "want" crimson and was much happier with the Keonig he got monday. So I was like "phew, everything's okay" and felt happy still. Then I get a tell from my LS leade saying people are bitching and he's telling them to back off. Then another tell from my friend Darkangelx saying that she is getting tells as well. I was stunned for a moment, I couldn't believe people were doing this to me. Turns out this WAR who also has a WAR leveled was pissed that I got them and what not, then there was this other RDM who has been in the LS for a long time, but never shows up. They were bitching not only to my leader and also to my friend. I was hurt, since I respected and liked these people beforehand, not mention lost as hell because they were not even lotting to begin with. So I went to dinner and came back to find now people were accusing my leader of favoritism. I couldn't believe that people were still going on about it. I was hurt, betrayed, because after all I've put into this LS people were turning around and doing this to me. I've skipped work, pulled all nighters, went to gods while I was vacation, and camped Ulli while I had the stomach flu. One of the PLD's who lost the lot to me turned around and said "I would have been mad if Mayo didn't get to lot. She's wanted those pants since before I got into this LS." And that meant a lot to me, but that didn't seem to put off the people who were mad at me. I asked my LS leader if I should vanish for a bit until things calm down, but he told me it wasn't my fault and that people were just being stupid.

I know end game is drama, but I've always avoided it. This was the first time I was the root of the problem. All because I lotted higher than the PLD's.